We try to think differently. We force myself to focus on the things we want in life but it feels like all we are is pre destined. Our behavior is not under our own control and our thoughts are delusions. That sickening feeling of having no free will yet having to witness your self ruin itself has no mercy.
Yet that is untrue. Our lives truly are in our hands. Our thoughts may just be delusions but they guide us in our actions. Delusion truly paves our path and that dread we feel is merely the unknown vastness of our future answering our calls.
Lord be good to me. The sea is so wide and my boat is so small.
There is a way to change our reality. The power of conciseness to your own actions shall steer the change. Do we know what we do right now? what we are right now? If we monitor our habits and actions on a daily basis without the biasness of our delusions, we know what we have become. As ugly as a reality that is to face , tis still the truth.
Once we have that we now plan something that our self would never perform. An act that leaves us thinking "why would I do that". It does not have to be extreme but it has to be something we would never think of doing. Something far above us ideally. Perhaps something we instinctively perform. Once done, our thoughts are in shambles. That same old schedule is gone. We are now back in the thinking phase. Now we build again.