Love thy enemy. Understand the the judgment of those who wrong you, understand the needs of those who oppose you and your hate will fade. Pity forms over those who become understood and then growth.
Then why don't we forgive our truest enemy? The being that holds us down and makes us carnal? It's nothing but our nafs - the animal within us that is what bring us down. Our true enemy. Why do we resist with no knowledge? why must we not understand the situation we're in?
Once we begin knowing who we truly are within, we pity us. Our condition is the mots pitiful; helpless, tired and suffocated. Truly a beggar who cannot beg. Our lips are sealed, our hearts are tightened. We suffer because we hate ourselves.
Let that hate go, know why you are. Know why you feel incapable and forgive yourself for that. when dealing with known actions, it's not the act that defined you. It's the intention. We sometimes become so focused on ourselves that we miss the important things in life. The true signs of God will be found when man looks at his blessings and finds Him through them.
Our deepest moments, the most focused and elevated phases happen when we become selfless. When we lose ourselves do we see things for what they truly are. These are times when we truly change. So perhaps our repentance is not in words or actions but in thoughts and intentions. Losing ourselves is the closest we'll be to having all we want.
But woe be to him who can no longer talk to His Lord. He who cannot find the faith to talk to God. Losing this, he becomes deserted, alone. Why would he be forsaken? What sin does man have to do to lose this precious gift. A life without His remembrance is no life at all. Death is better than a life without thoughts of Him. The worst fate of the worst of us is to be condemned to such a life.
Find yourself O' khaaki and love. Regardless of your flaws, you're the only one worth to love you. May the Lord make us love ourselves so that we may Love Him.