Our thoughts were never meant to be compiled and organized. We are a mystery and so are the thoughts we produce in our absurd lives. A machine can only function in a predictable environment. If it's unpredictable, it'll take a higher computational power to live through it.
Hence our minds are built to withstand the unpredictability of life. It's when we try to make sense of it that we spiral out of control. That's absurd. That's true. Learn to allow times to pass through. It doesn't matter if its not according to your desires. If you accept the situation the matter will unfold by itself.
The most important thing a man must latch on to during these times are desire and faith. Lack of one diminishes the other. Our lives, our minds and our fates are connected to struggle. Without struggle one cannot reach to the heights of their potential and the only way one can bear that struggle is via faith and desire. Lose those and you become a common man, a man of excuses and a man within his designated boundaries.
So allow those thoughts to run free O' being of soil and earth. Just don't allow your ambitions and their boundaries hinder your vision from your purpose. And with God's will, all shall be good.