Does it matter if those around you, know you? If they understand you and see you and witness how you managed to go through all of what you did?
No.
Do you know yourself? do you remember what you did yesterday? what you felt this morning? how bad it was or how hope tastes like? You must respect yourself as a being, an important being in your life. Your existence has much more importance than you can fathom yet your mind only thinks of the past. Your story is beautiful and worth every second of attention. How else will you name each chapter? How else will you decide what each page really wants to say?
More importantly does the one you love know you? Does the Lord know of your struggle? are you proud of it? you should. For it's only Him who should know you and it's only Him who you should want to be known by. Struggle for Him and talk to Him. His eyes never close and His mercy wavers so why want anyone else when you have eternal love from the Lord of all beings.
Make me love myself so that I can love you
Change O' khaaki for your Lord. This is the change that is the best. This is Eden. This is the truth. The only witness to your truth. Love Him truly and learn the act of worship to better love Him. With God ye prevail.